Yours Truly, Baidura...

Monday, December 31, 2007

Happy 18th Birthday,Dee!!

One of the last few for generation 1980s..Enjoy ur day aite fren?Sorry i cant make it to celebrate ur bdae.

Jeez.2008 will come in like erm..12hrs time..I can say 2007 brings a lot of ups and downs.

First it was searching for a job.Finally 6 feb i found a job at IRAS.Love the ppl there,job and of course the pay.3 days later,if im not wrong,the results was out.My oh my,i cldnt describe how dissapointed i was.Its still there fresh in mind.

To the point i was in front of my form teacher getting the result,then to the point i was crying in front of edah.Well,i tot my life ends there.But of coz not.

My bro in law n mom brought me to TP and ITE Bishan to ask some qns.Still couldn't decide which to choose.To ITE for the course i want or to Poly bt nt e course tt i want.

I continued working till sch starts,16 April.Damn lucky Syaf was in the same class as me.Then i came to know idah aka EeDuHh and the rest too.You wanna sumting funny..I introduced myself to jan..Then i was wondering,she's a malay bt why does she talk eng to me.Haha.Well now i know jan.

Day goes by.Im beginning to like my sch,class n lecturers.Except moppies mayb.hehe.Still rmbr me n jan did her assignments damn fast n she scolded jan for tt.

For my beaulas,we got closer sumhw despite the fact that we're totally in diff sch.Not all of us got together well.Its someting tt i dont wish to mention it here n right now.

So Goodbye 2007!

and

HELLO 2008!!!

11:20 AM

Friday, December 28, 2007

I don't know what to update.Feel like updating pics.Since many of my friends have already seen my new haircut,i will jz upload watever pics i have.So to those who have yet to see it,there u go.

This is my blog right?I can say whatever i want here right?So here me out ppl.Especially this person.I wont give a name such as 'she who shall not be named' or 'a fren of mine'.I will straight away say her name.Its not u aidah.

Amalina.

Wont deny that your msg yest suprised all of us.Yeah we do feel bad for not asking u along.I admit,i'm the organiser for this.Damn right i feel bad.worst even.Im not here to pick up another fight.I think enuf is enuf.

We all feel awkward when you're there.Why?It has been a long time since we last talk after what happened.Im sure u feel the same way too.Take ana's bdae for instance.U're lost to some of our conversation.Ain't that right?

I do observe u.Some time u jz stay silence when u dont know whats goin on.Do u reli wan to experience that everytime ure with us?

You can recall everyting in the past.By all means.Want to say that aku tk tau kenang jasa baik org?or mcm kacang lupakn kulit?go ahead.Aku tk pernah lupe tu.Because of u,we are all together again.

Whatever it is,dont blame or even think that they nvr even think of u.If u say ure not needed,then why e hell do u tink they feel bad?If they have forgotten abt u,they wont feel tt way.

I dont know what to do anymore.New year is coming.Can we all start afresh beaulas?By that i meant: edah,yati,ana,ifah,syirah,ain n u(ina).2008..cn tt mean e 8 of us?instead of 7?I wont f***ing entertain tis kind of shit animore.Are u guys in or out?tag me.I took the courage to say tis out..nw its up to u guys.

2:13 PM

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Every Day It's Getting Worse

Do The Same Things and It Hurts

I Don't Know If I Should Cry

All I Know Is That I'm Trying

I Want To Believe In You

But You Make It So Hard To Do

Whats The Point Of Making Plans

You Brake All The Ones We Have

I Don't Know Where We Went Wrong

Cause We Used To Be So Strong

I can't waste time so give it a moment

I realized nothing is broken

No need to worry about everything I've done

Live every second like it was my last one

1:07 PM

The class bbq was awesome!

At the beginning it was drizzling.Drats.When it stops a lil bit,there goes the girl power!!Mrs K,me n current..oops,karen..work on the fire starter.With jan n syaf holding the umbrella.

Finally the fire started.Most of them were saying,"wah first time i see girl start e fire".Well at that time,there were no guys to help out coz nizam n naufal went fishing.

Everyone was already hungry wen we set that ting.Well i can say everyone didnt ate lunch.The satay was damn nice.Tk sia2 ziezie tolong mak die.Not forgetting Asmah Laily's so called twin sis mee goreng.Like what jan said,"Minta ampun sedapnye!" Hahaha.

Suprisingly Farhan,Khairin and Dinie came.They didnt pay.And that makes my dear ana mad.

Lots of pic were taken.Someone lost one slipper to the sea.

Idah pulled me to this bench near the sea n under e coconut tree.Step romantic lah.Bt along the way,its not nice.Im not wearing any slipper coz miss jan borrowed mine to go to the toilet.So jan came to e rescue.So called.She gave me one,and both of us started hopping.

After that,the sharing session begins.My crazy gfs n a dude(ehem) was there.Love it.It was so dark that we cnt see each other expression.

Then i had to piggyback jan instead of hopping to e pit.Ok ure right jan.U do lose weight.You're much lighter than that day when we played the game.

At 10pm,ma bro was there to pick me up.So send Jan n Syaf home.

Had a nice bath.Decided to turn on the comp when i got tis 'diplomatic letter'.Shall not entertain that for a moment,okay?And also,if ur sis in involved in tis,i wan her out of tis ting.Thank u.

11:52 AM

Monday, December 24, 2007

....:: A clean break is easier.You can reset it and it heals,and you can move on.But if you leave things messy or things don't get put right then it just hurts.Forever ::...

Why do i still put my hopes too high when i know at the very end,i will still stumble n fall down.Hard.I always said i gave up.But then i kept on trying.What was i hoping for?A change?It hurts so much.That ans always make me want to jz break down n cry.That very ans,it makes me hate tt word nw.

Why am i bearing all this when i jz leave n get away frm it?Its hard.As i try to move away,it keeps coming back.When i learn to let go,tt hand came struggling in search for mine.Still,i hold on to tt,tightly.Just give me an ans.Anyone.Why am i still here n not away frm tt thing?haiz.

Right now,my brother is massaging my shoulder.I smell something fishy.

And BAM!!There you go.."Nur,nk beli laptop?"."Yeah okay.I'll go ask my dad.Die cap(izit e correct spellin?) duit." I know,my dad is his dad too.Obviously i dont have the money.

I just finished watching these two movie,"Because I Said So" and "Little Black Book".The first one,damn cool.Imagine ur mom asking u,"How does an orgasm feel like?"

The 2nd one is also great.The paragraph on top,i got it frm that movie.How does a girl,who jumps into a rabbit hole and comes out at the other end stil doesnt change?The answer is,she doesn't.

Okay,I'm absolutely am tired right now.So here's my ans to u aidah.What the hell am i doing in woodland just now.I went to buy stuff for my class bbq pit and helped out my fren's mom carry all those stuff to her hse.

I was so blessed jz nw.Syaf as usual was late.Hehe.So we took the bus and damn.We were at the very right time.So now i know how it feels for syirah to have tt long journey to sch everyday.Damn tiring.Especially when i woke up at 7.15am.Thanks ana for waking me up.

Finally got to meet the few ppl that i miss.Ana,siew leng,karen,lala,nana n syaf.Syaf was stunned when she saw me.Thanks a lot eh.The 3 musketeers were laughing n smilling seeing me.

After that,went to tamp.I became a 'cheti'.Had to meet Halimah Jan.I miss her soo soo much."Omg!!Now u really look like dora the explorer!!" Wow.In other words,she's saying im cute.Right jan?

9:47 PM

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

First and foremost,Happy 18th Birthday Halimah Jan!!Rmbr,you're 18,not 8.So now u cn accompany idah go clubbing.Stay ehem 'sweet' and crazy always.

Bounce with me, bounce bounce bounce

twirk it twirk it

Shake baby shake sha shake sha shake

work it work it

Twist baby twist twist twist

you better dip that thang

I cnt stop watching the Beyonce concert.The male dancer...oh my gosh..im melting..Not that i have a thing for negros.

Do you know that Britney Spears younger sis,Jamie,is pregnant!She's 16!Goodness!Atleast she's not goin for abortion which is kinda gd rather than killing an innocent baby bcoz of her stupid mistake.That's the good thing when you listen to the radio while ironing your uni.

I will nvr take a motorbike lesson.Yest,i went to queensway with my bro.Its fun riding the bike.However,when its raining..its not that fun.One thing ure soaking wet.And the other ting is,do u how painful it is wen e droplets of water hit ur skin.

The funny thing was when i was riding,i felt sleepy.So there was once i knock my head(terhantuk) against ma bro.When we came to a stop at a traffic light,"Oi,ko tidur kepe?sampai terhantuk."

I shall make a wish list coz i told fitriah i will.And here:

A new sandal
Jeans
Clothes.More clothes.
A new haircut
Bags.
Jacket.

I covered all of them actuali.Except no 3.Its never enough.So this is all i cn think of so far.Oh yes,i think i wanna change my specs.Either that,or jz e lens.

Tmr will be Hari Raya Haji,so I shall wish all Muslims Selamat Hari Raya Haji.Cnt wait to meet my cousins.Im sure they're goin to b shocked seein my new hair cut.I cn bet with you they will say this,"ler,aku ingatkn ko izan(rohaizan)."

So till here.I dont know what to update animore.Shall meet my fellow classmate on the 26th and beaulas on the 27th.God Bless Me.Toodles.

12:52 PM

Friday, December 14, 2007

Work like you don't

need money.

Dance like no one's watching

over you.

Love like you've never been

hurt before.

Farz smiling to herself.

Before.Wanna see ma new hair cut?NAH!!

I shall NOT post the pic of ma new hair cut.Its a suprise.I look like ma cousin!!Who is 10yrs older than me.No i dont look old wif tis.More like...erh...i dont know.

I shall know that whoever wants to see me isnt because they miss me.They jz wanna see ma hair.Shall wait and see who.Tis is of coz with e exception of e 24th - 26th class bbq.Like what ana banana say,its damn long.

I want to wake up late but i cnt.Ma eyes automatically open at abt 7.30am.I shall try not to wake up early tmr.

Lunch with ma sis was great.Sister bonding.I got free swensen lunch.Woohoo!!Thanx a lot sis.Best sister award goes to her.Damn i miss ma workplace.Syirah,jom keje kat IRAS lagi.While walking to meet ma sis,saw a couple of ma seniors.im happy to see them.They want me to work for em again.Damn i cnt.The job is no doubt boring.The pay is gd.The journey is not.But the ppl there are jz so..great n nice.None of em are e same age as me.Much much more older than me.They're like ma moms n sis.

After that head to orchard with farz n him.ifah was late.more like 1hr late.HMV is where we spent most of our time there.Tat's whr i wan e beyonce concert dvd.So nice!!Between beyonce n shakira,who wld u choose?I have to say beyonce.Anyone against me?I hav ntg against shakira.Bt i prefer beyonce more.

Trip to johor is canceled.DAMN!I was looking forward to buy donuts at dunkin donuts.

Me and farhana were jz talking abt stuff.I realise mayb me n tt someone jz cnt b like others.Sad to say that sumtimes truth hurts.Then we go on talking abt our circle of frens.To all ma poly frens out dere,plz..try not to speak abt poly stuff in front of me.1 thing its..e feeling..erm..e werd shld b..inferior?

Yes,im having a great time in ite.But wat abt e times wen im wif u guys.Im not experiencing ur life right nw.Fine.But insyallah i will.But cn u feel hw i feel right nw?To be in e bottom of e grp."its okay bai" is always e sentence used wen tis feeling came up.I suddenly feel like letting it out.Yes ana,it feel great.Serious.

It must be e crazy bunch of girls n a guy tt i have now tat makes me forget all tis.I wld nvr ever ever trade em for anyting in tis world. I had e best lecturer ever which is Mrs K.

I think tats all for today.

10:41 PM

Thursday, December 13, 2007

A pair of brownies

THE brownies

Another pair

My bestfriend ransack ma rm.

Me n lala during bcm jz nw

the class jz nw.yes tats a teacher.

jan with her shades.haiz.

QD's bear.

IT'S THE HOLIDAY!!

Okay ppl.i shall update.*eyes on those who tag asking me to update* So finally the holiday has arrive.At last i cn rest,hav a life and buck up on ma studies?Just now was officially the last day for us.The rest didnt turn up for BCM lesson.

Most of us are playing games.Den norbit goes,"Why are u all playing games?It doesnt benefit u guys." I ans by saying we are all stress."But today i nvr scold or nag at u ppl wad.".."Glad u know cher that u actuali nag."

A fun time talking to Norbit.Now i know she's scared of ghost and she love to play soduku.Talking abt BCM,theres annoucement for jan,idah n mooda.Jan,u dont need to redo ur assignment.Idah,u practically have to redo the whole ting including memo.Mooda will be qn 4 n 5 for letter.

Went to meet my beloved best friend at ws to return ma vcds.Then decided to go home n go out again.So she followed me home n wait for me while i change.Thank u aidah!She came to ma rm,sit on ma bed n go "are u changing in front of me?".Sounds so wrong aidah.

She checked my stuff.Even ma comp.She look at ma pics n she commented on one of e pics.Damn funny.It was the pic of me n e QD during raya,at naz hse."nie adek sape?(who's brother is tis?) *pointing to nizam*.I was laughing like mad.So i explained to her tt he is one of my classmate.Only tt he is small size.

After that,went out.Meet farz.Ate at ljs den went to mcafe to meet ifah.So me,farz n ifah went starbucks after aidah left.I went shopping after tat.Bought a jacket at Mango and a sandal at charles n keith.money *pfft* gone.

My cousin offered me to go to Melaka n i refused.WHY?Coz im goin out tmr n sat(johor)..i shall make ma weekends worthwhile coz i refused a damn good deal man.Its with ma cousins!!They're the fun ppl.ARGH!!my fri n sat is fully booked.Im going to have lunch wif ma sis at her werkplace which used to b ma werkplace.I miss werking there.Then maybe meet him while waiting for farz n ifah.

A new haircut plz!!hehe..if u wanna see it,then u better miss me.And i mean REALLY REALLY miss me..If not,cn wait long2.I shall not bore u ppl wif ma entries.Wan me to update so much right.There u go.take tat!Happy Holidays everyone!!

9:23 PM

Thursday, December 6, 2007

Tofee Nut Frap & Java Chip

Them with two person's hand..i wonder who..

women in black

Minah Payungs

Today is such a crazy day.In the morning,we got one hell of a suprised on the way to staff rm.Jan's reaction was damn funny.We saw bouncer and when I think back,we look ridiculous taking out our lanyard.Jan was so panicked that she thought staff rm is at lvl 3.

Me: Jan whr are u going?

Jan:To the staff rm lah.

Me:Its at lvl 2.

All:LOL!

The bouncer still have the cheek to ask,"Why do you all look so stressed up?"..With you staring at us,who wouldn't and we know we didnt put on our lanyard.Jeez.Lesson learnt,I shall put on my lanyard at all times in sch.

Had a catching session with miss jan when going for toilet break.So Jan,did it make u sweat?Since ure cold that time..Another shocking thing happen during IAC..Me n idah was talking and naufal suddenly came to ask for sweet if im not wrong.He is wearing a girl's sweater.Me n idah looked at each other.

So when i went to throw rubbish,that HIKER go and wink again.I asked him to stop.Then i asked naufal,who's jacket it was?To my upmost relief..Its nt his..it was dayana's.Phew..

After sch,Jan is damn crazy today.Salah makan ubat agaknye..atau tk mkn langsung..

Jan:Idah,sini jap...

Idah:*confidently go towards jan*

Jan:*step on the puddle of water*

So you guys know who to sabo during the class bbq pit right..We shall spare some ppl..bt that one girl..i dont tink i wanna let go tt opportunity jz like that.

We got our starbucks drink jz nw.Totally worth it.The toffee nut frap is so nice.Ppl,go get it.Its nice!So our dear starbucks fan,Dee n Jan got the same drink as mine.Karen got her java cup.Hehe.

After that,we hang out under the block in front of tamp pri.Minah n mats bwh block ade class ah..Minum kopi class nye..fuyoo..Now i know one thing,coffee make Jan go high..Dee has a strong imagination..My frens..hehe..

On my way to the bus stop,I saw Cherie Tan..Tan Tan Tan..I miss my Tan..The girl who never fails to vandalise my things by writing 'Baikuku'.So yes,if u guys saw my stationery got that word,its her job..

7:53 PM

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Happy 18th Birthday Shahidah and Siew Leng(a.k.a banana and panda)!!!

Dee and the bdae gurl.

Them wif e bdae gurls.

Us with bdae gurls.

Dora the Explorer jr.

So Happy Birthday Xiuling n Idah.Now can go clubbing,watch M18,buy cigarette & alcohol(except idah).Hope u like the present n sori theres no cake.We dont want us to get sick bcoz of some contaminated choc cake.I thank Ifah for that.Thanks for telling us abt the news.

Today for S&W,we 6 students played tennis.Ana,relax eh.Tk guna marah si Azlan tu.Azlan today is being super lame n annoying.Thank god i have tennis to occupy my time.Hows the conversation Idah n Jan?Great?

Finally i understand IAC topic now.But it takes time for me to do w/o referring.So yes,like what idah said,"Welcome to the club".Now i shall try to get out of the club and then make u guys join my club,okay?

I watched Enchanted yesterday with Ifah n Farz.So fun n great.There is no happily ever after in life.I jz love the song.So addictive.

Ive been living for a true love kiss!

Okay,now i want to hafal this song ana send.Tmr kie..idah dont forget..hafal..n charge ur hp lah dey!

7:05 PM

Saturday, December 1, 2007

Finally!!

FYI...I have STM...

What was the sentence again??

Finally got the chance to go out.I'm like this wild animal who jz manage to escape frm cage.Yesterday morning,went to the doctor to take my blood test.It was perfectly alright.Thank god.

What a friend i have?

Yati was asking me what was my illness that i didnt turn up for 4 days?So i explained to her,and she keeps getting further n further away frm me.Same thing happened when i went out with farz.

The day has finally arrived.Some ppl made me wait at the Changi Airport for hmm...1hr30min...Its okay..The wait is totally worth it..All this for my dear friend Raihana.Celebrated her birthday at Swensens.Allah selamatkn kamu ye ana..Bought for her dangling earrings and ice-cream plus a candle on top.Purposely singing bdae song for her LOUDLY.Paisey eh ana?Next stop syirah lak eh.

Edahdie asked me one short bt difficult qn.Why do u choose accounting?Wandee once asked me;

D:Do u like accounting?

B:Yes.

D:Do u love accounting?

B:No.

Accounting practically make sense to me.I dont know abt u guys..but for me,it does.For me,it happens in our daily life.U count ur money everyday.That means ur money is accounted for that day.Its e same.Jz tt e biz is not selling one or two item.There's a lot.All this complicated tings tt make us nt want to do it.But someone has got to do it...and who are they?Accountants.

NOW! Imagine..imagine my boyfriend..A guy with a pierced ear,nose n tongue.A body full of tatoo.A matrep.How abt tt?Farz was playing along with me jz nw.So fun.

Just now was the time we search for little misses..Then i asked her,if i were to buy one..What shld i be?She being the 'smart ass' said "Little Miss Dumb ass" and she will be buy the 'Little Miss Smart Ass' and we both became the 'ass-es'.

And another conversation,

F:Yes!I'm going to Espirit as somerset that tmr.

B:With who?For what?

F:I got this $30 voucher.Im going with my sis.

B:*Out of a sudden*..Damn u Shariffs'...

So i think thats all for today.I had fun this 2 days.I hope nex wk i will too.Im lookin forward to see my classmate.

10:10 PM